hello!
I am sad and a little dissapointed to be honest with you. I shouldnt have gotten ahead of myself really but i really really wanted that job.
I didnt get the job in waterstones because there were other people who had more experience that they wanted out there. even though i said all the right things, i met the manager and made friends with the workers months before the interview and so i thought they would look past the havent worked before thing!
Why does everywhere do that? How can someone actually get that experience if no one would employ ones that havent worked before!?
Its not like ive tried! ive tried in so many places and they havent employed me because they cant be arsed to teach people. its seriously frustrating. Things were looking up, my dream was partly coming true when tom got the Game job and then i thought that i would get a job so then we would be able to afford to get the house we want after graduating.
But no of course i always screw things up, no matter how good of a person i am, no one wants to employ me. i have nothing to my name...
I wanted to have that chance to become an independant provider, to work to gather money so that me and Tom can properly start our lives together. i know that will happen anyways but i jsd want to be a part of something where i have the satisfaction when i buy things that i have earned it and that i am doing something with my life.
I want to be a publisher in the end, but i dont know if even thats possible....i dont want to be educated all day after Uni, i want to work and start off something new...i want to work and earn money so that me and Tom would live comfortably.
my certainty has gone out the window right now. i shouldnt have thought that things would actually go right for me.
I am just so grateful that i have my Thomas and at least i am loved and cared for, thats all that matters in the end.
