Hello Lovelies!! I know I've neglected you recently and it irritates me! Life just gets in the way sometimes. but anyway I have stuff to write and some much needed time out!! So bring on the writing. I think I haven't properly written since my nan passed away- I guess its something everyone goes through in life where that immense grief just takes over and your creative juices just stops. But I'm trying my best to get on with it and write. She wouldn't like to see me struggle. So recently I've been racking my brain with the stories my granddad used to tell his kids and us grand-kids when we were little, perched on top of 'his' chair and lap all those years ago. When I was a child I reverentially believed that he went to Africa and fought with a tiger and found a possessed glove come to kill him in the night. This feeling of immense adoration and respect is what I want to catch in short stories for children. Its not what I usually write in but as they are stories passed down through the generations I think I can make it happen. So look out for that in the near future! And I shall dedicate it to these lovely people!

On to another less sad point, things are a bit up in the air for us at the moment. We have a flat lease coming up in may, both of us don't want to be where we are now,were both so trapped in our jobs and we want out, but if we still want to live independently together without parents and all that comes with it then we have to make money some how! That's life unfortunately, you cant get what you want at the click of a finger, or straight away when you graduate, or when you wish for it. you've go to make things happen, you've got to work 9-5 at a shitty, life less, mind numbing, soul sucking job to achieve what you want. Its complete shit but we want to live in a flat together some how, and the way to do that is get temporary jobs that has nothing to do with what we actually want to do. I want to move to Cardiff or London now, I don't want to be in Carmarthen any more, even though its a great place there's just no jobs at all!!! whether there's jobs over there...well that's another thing up in the air as everywhere and everyone is struggling for jobs right now in this current climate. Were lucky in the fact that we do have jobs to keep our independence and our gorgeous flat that I would be sad to leave.I just want to be earning more so that we can live more not just work, I don't want to be those people that constantly work and have nothing to say that they have actually done anything in their lives. Everything is so up in the air at the moment its ridiculous! Well thanks for reading! You never know I might post again soon!! ^.^