Hey!
These last few days have been weird and a bit lost to me. The fact of the matter is that if i am alone and have nothing really to do in the day then i hate it. i end up sitting in front of the laptop or TV either trying to write or looking at the re run of come dine with me that Ive watched about a thousand times before then!
I go insane by myself-i don't like my own company, i mean i thrive better when I'm with someone so then at least youre not being bored by yourself you have someone there to share in the boredom and something mite happen when you re with someone. I'm a people person!
So yea before TAG left i was looking forward to see all my friends and have some me time but then when it actually came to that week, its kinda like nothing is going right for me.yesterday was great after about two ish when charlie came over then at about 8 me llinos and charlie went to fair Llan - which is usually a good fair in our little village, we've been going every year since we were practically born so its kind of a tradition.
But sadly because of the weather it was a bit of a disappointment.(it was raining). so me and charlie went on the waltzers once and then bought candy floss and we all went for a nostalgia tour.
We decided to go on a walk to our old primary school and around there and we just hung out as the rain fell on our hair and coordinating hoodies. we had a good time as the memories came flooding back to us!
Afterwards we decided to go and have a panad (cup of tea) at charlie's house! where we talked again for ages until about 10.30pm actually. it was great i had fun!
But we were going to go out with some of our other friends today for lunch but llinos and charlie couldn't do it so Ive been left at my house with the TV again. Plus mum is ill so she was home but i couldn't really do anything as she was groggy all day. i feel hopeless when shes ill coz thers nothing you can rili do. Plus she went to the doctors yesterday about this pain in her side and we think she might have a cyst i dunno how you spell it but its on her ovaries so I'm worrying a bit < as always sorry TAG.
I don't feel that well myself today either. i think its coz I'm rili fed up with things and a bit sad and all over the place. i just don't know what to do coz I'm trying to sort out stuff for me and my friends to do but people change plans at the last minute and cant do stuff. its like i try and try when i can do something but its really hard.
At least I've passed my second year!! it seems I'm just on the cusp of having a 2.2 or a 2.1 and i want to get a good 2.1 next year so i want something to go right for me in the academic world for once. coz it never does for me, i love it that i got such good marks for my writing but then that compared to people doing like biology or the 'cleverer' courses its like I'm not clever enough to be in the same realm as them. its like because I'm not doing something like that then i will have a hard time getting work! whatever happened to doing something you love eh!?!?
If people are being so negative in the work aspect then this country really is screwed up! why cant people just be positive and not just think of the job at the end, just think if you will be happy or not! you don't want to spend years on something that you absolutely hate will you?! i don't like it at all! its annoying and i wish people would stop asking me what I'm gonna do after Uni coz i don't know yet! nobody knows what is going to happen so don't jinks something or try to predict the future. I don't think like that, i think about the right now and what i want now!
And it doesnt help that my laptop just goes and overheats whilst i try to watch something or play on sims or whatever. i hate it!! its only 2 years of age for gods sake!!
My God Ive ranted so much and I'm sorry if this is really boring you i just wanted to get that out!
Its my Birthday in a week and two days!!!! TAG had better not have spent too much on himself than on me today! Not when its his birthday next month and mine only a week away!
So yeah i hope you guys are having a better few days than i am!
Bye Bye xoxox
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